"Life is made of two days. One which is sweet and the other is bitter."
"Fear to let fall a drop and you will spill a lot."
Last weekend I drove to Balchik with the basic mission of improving my social experience. The event was called Bulgacon 2010 and deserves its own post. But most important is that I met new people, interesting people. I had lots of fun, heard new ideas, even kissed a very nice girl, and returned with lots of books and ... with a hangover and an outburst of depression and obsessive-compulsive symptoms. Only chance saved me from a road accident several times on the 6-hour way back. Why do i feel so guilty and lonely? It is because I did hurt some people's feelings, behaved selfishly and superficially and maybe lost it all in the end, who knows. But it seems my destiny is to experience such things all the time, so the only option is to overcome them and move on.
So, my next mission is to get into that Karate club, there i'll meet more people and will hopefully go a step further in defeating my fears. I wish myself luck, there is no other to do it.
Maybe I should also learn to express myself better, because this text doesn't feel the way it should be, neither explains the situation i'm in. But at least I made the effort to put up something, which I find respectable in its own right :)
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