Well, another year went by, mostly unnoticed, when I think about it now. Some days ago I even had the impression that no entries were made here since the last one, year that is, so I was in a hurry to put at least one for this one, whatever the reason. Pedantism perhaps, not to leave a hole in the neat row. When I was in high school, in the first of my notebooks I hated to leave an empty page, without some kind of a little drawing or text, in colors. Not that I had much colors or skill, anyway, but a blank page with marks from pressuring the pen on the other side seems so sad and pathetic to me even now. So there was perhaps another reason for this besides pedantism, ok! In such a case the last several sentences are somewhat unrelevant, but I'll leave them be. Interestingly enough, I like my verse in english better that in my native tongue. Maybe it's the pride of being able to construct adequate sentences and paragraphs, even if sometimes with a little help from the dictionary, even if just for slight references. Maybe I'm pedantic after all. So, seeing how chaotically my thoughts unfolded in this text makes me worry, but this has it's reasons. One of them is the chronical sleep deprivation lately, which successfully has rendered me a plain idiot, unable to concentrate for a period longer than ten seconds. The other one is lack of writing, in both languages, I simply have lost my touch, if I ever have had it, that is.
But enough of this. Initially I thought of making some kind of a retrospection, albeit now I cannot think of anything worth mentioning. If there was such a thing, I should have already posted about it here earlier, right? Wrong.
1. Visiting Mount Olympus in Greece is the most amazing of the unmentioned things here. More about it later, I made a new-year-promise to post some pictures too, at last, eventually.
2. Discovering how cool is to play with kids, while visiting Mount Musala. Maria is the wackiest little girl I have ever been acquainted with. Perhaps the only one too. Met her again on the Christmas party two weeks ago, played chase and pony, I wonder what the other adults thought of me, especially since I fell on the floor twice, being little high on beer :) Time to have my own kids! Now I only have to find a cute japanese girl to marry to.
3. Beeing promoted to a higher position is always nice, though in my case the self-doubt continues to bug me, especially after a blunder made last month. I believe it marks a turning point in the relationship with my boss. Well, on that occasion my pedantism turned against me, or was it my enthusiasm, or my stubbornness, more like a combination of them all. Let's face it, I'm not a manager by nature, I can't even manage my bedtime, lol. Compensating this shortcoming with tenacity and clever ideas now and then is not enough, unsustainable. Emotional overflow is not helping too, I do have the feeling of acting slightly bipolar sometimes, hm? But perhaps I'm judging myself too harsh, as ever, all that matters is we pulled a good result this year and only it should count. I hope :)
... and this should do it for today. I'm sleepy, I'm tired of writing I-s all over the place (darned language) and the last paragraph summoned not too pleasant emotions and memories. Time to go to bed, glad I've made it so far with the writing, intended to be several sentences long only. Must do it more often.
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