The other night I stayed late and watched Billoxi Blues on TV. Don't even know if that's the name, but I do remember the game those boys played in the barracks, before bed - If you only have a week to live remaining, what will you do with it?
Today the answer came so natural to me, and this is it:
One day I want to spend with mother - to help her in the kitchen, to help her in the garden, to watch a comedy on TV together. To feel her love towards me, and to show her mine. To be the good son she deserves, if just for a day, to let her remember me with good.
Another day I want to fall in love - deep, crystal clear and innocent, like the eyes of my girl. To walk, and breathe, and speak, and dance with my beloved. To play the silly games of our second childhood and fall asleep under the warm stars, embraced in one another.
Day three I'll be with lots of women, mind-boggling beautiful, corrupt and pervert. We'll do all sorts of things to eachother, explore the dirtiest corners of our souls, satisfy our lowest desires. Wow... not much to write here, hands getting shaky, lol.
The fourth one will be full of success. With power, money, admiration, brilliance. With clever trading, smart inventing, interviews and speeches, shit like that. Might write a novel and paint a masterpiece too, but there'll be not much time for such attainments, really.
The other day I'll spend in spending. Money. Buy me all sorts of interesting things, for no reason. Pay people to do stupid things, help people to get on their feet, buy people just for the sake of it. Then do some gambling and lose spectacularly, with a big grin. And then buy me some more things, it could go on forever - fast cars, cute pets, hi-tech gadgets, huge estates, beautiful trinkets ...
Day six we take the warpath. Do some revenge, straighten some wrongs, and have fun too. Spill blood from dawn till dusk, of all the the crooked individuals deserving it, and asking for it too, anyway. Let's make sure the day before I buy enough machines and ammo, lol. Now thinking of it, I could have bought an army too, but too late now. A decent armour will do too, haha.
The last day I will pray for my soul. For obviously it does need it badly ...
Today the answer came so natural to me, and this is it:
One day I want to spend with mother - to help her in the kitchen, to help her in the garden, to watch a comedy on TV together. To feel her love towards me, and to show her mine. To be the good son she deserves, if just for a day, to let her remember me with good.
Another day I want to fall in love - deep, crystal clear and innocent, like the eyes of my girl. To walk, and breathe, and speak, and dance with my beloved. To play the silly games of our second childhood and fall asleep under the warm stars, embraced in one another.
Day three I'll be with lots of women, mind-boggling beautiful, corrupt and pervert. We'll do all sorts of things to eachother, explore the dirtiest corners of our souls, satisfy our lowest desires. Wow... not much to write here, hands getting shaky, lol.
The fourth one will be full of success. With power, money, admiration, brilliance. With clever trading, smart inventing, interviews and speeches, shit like that. Might write a novel and paint a masterpiece too, but there'll be not much time for such attainments, really.
The other day I'll spend in spending. Money. Buy me all sorts of interesting things, for no reason. Pay people to do stupid things, help people to get on their feet, buy people just for the sake of it. Then do some gambling and lose spectacularly, with a big grin. And then buy me some more things, it could go on forever - fast cars, cute pets, hi-tech gadgets, huge estates, beautiful trinkets ...
Day six we take the warpath. Do some revenge, straighten some wrongs, and have fun too. Spill blood from dawn till dusk, of all the the crooked individuals deserving it, and asking for it too, anyway. Let's make sure the day before I buy enough machines and ammo, lol. Now thinking of it, I could have bought an army too, but too late now. A decent armour will do too, haha.
The last day I will pray for my soul. For obviously it does need it badly ...



